Depression...

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Abner_the_basset_hound

Discussion Starter · Mar 13, 2021

Anyone else with depression that rides fast and recklessly? I’m at the point where I know I’m at the end. The only feeling of normalcy I get is not riding my motorcycle normally, but riding like a complete lunatic/disregard for anything. I ride 130 everywhere I go on the freeway. Lane splitting at 60mph I can’t help it. I run every red light. I can’t put my bike away or sell it because I’ll buy another. Anyone with these feelings please help.

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superman242242

· #2 · Mar 13, 2021

As someone who deals with depression myself if you are being serious I strongly suggest finding professional help or mabey talking to a close friend or family about it . As bad as things get I couldn’t imagine the trauma my friends and family would go through if something happened to me

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Screan29

· #3 · Mar 13, 2021

I can attest to the trauma the family feels! As it may seem like an easy out for you it often spreads what you are dealing with among those close to you. Certainly reach out!

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MK3Brent

· #4 · Mar 13, 2021

Yep. I manage. But I feel ya.

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Moto26

· #5 · Mar 13, 2021

I don’t know if this is a troll post or not, but I don’t think putting others’ lives at risk is going to help anything...

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Bucket Jumper

· #6 · Mar 13, 2021

My older brother just passed away less than a month ago right after his 62nd birthday. He suffered with depression his entire life. He drank heavily to numb the pain. He had virtually everything a man could want, except a wife and children. He would never admit that he had a problem. You, however, can see that you have a problem which means there is hope for you.
Talk to a professional, a clergyman, SOMEBODY. You have no idea what a devastating effect you could have on your family.

Trust me. I know first hand

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Abner_the_basset_hound

Discussion Starter · #7 · Mar 13, 2021

Moto26 said:
I don’t know if this is a troll post or not, but I don’t think putting others’ lives at risk is going to help anything...

Not a troll post. It’s like something takes over me and I can’t stop.

Abner_the_basset_hound

Discussion Starter · #8 · Mar 13, 2021

Bucket Jumper said:
My older brother just passed away less than a month ago right after his 62nd birthday. He suffered with depression his entire life. He drank heavily to numb the pain. He had virtually everything a man could want, except a wife and children. He would never admit that he had a problem. You, however, can see that you have a problem which means there is hope for you.
Talk to a professional, a clergyman, SOMEBODY. You have no idea what a devastating effect you could have on your family.

Trust me. I know first hand

So sorry for your loss... I have one older brother and couldn’t imagine if I lost him... I have a psychiatrist but it’s just medication. She never has time to talk. I guess I need a therapist.

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Moto26

· #9 · Mar 14, 2021

Okay, you’ve reached out to us. You must care enough to get help. Go to Psychology Today: Health, Help, Happiness + Find a Therapist and put in your location, and they will give you a list of names. You may have to talk to a few different people to find someone you can connect with.

In the meantime, I would say you have to stay off the bike. I know you’re getting some payoff from the rush, but it’s really not going to end well if you keep riding like this. I don’t think you really want to hurt yourself, and I’m sure you don’t want to hurt someone else, but when you get on the bike you can’t help yourself, and when something happens you won’t be able to take it back.

Please seek help. It’s out there...

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vampire

· #10 · Mar 14, 2021

it's normal to act this way when a person is depressed.
1st,, everything is treatable.
2nd,, if you crash, you won't only harm yourself, but others might be. especially your friends & family.
3rd,, and above all, professional help is advised.
I was on anti-depressant for 4 years but that alone won't help. look if you can gain anything from cognitive behavioral therapy.
Don't hesitate to PM me at any time.

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Abner_the_basset_hound

Discussion Starter · #11 · Mar 14, 2021

Moto26 said:
Okay, you’ve reached out to us. You must care enough to get help. Go to Psychology Today: Health, Help, Happiness + Find a Therapist and put in your location, and they will give you a list of names. You may have to talk to a few different people to find someone you can connect with.

In the meantime, I would say you have to stay off the bike. I know you’re getting some payoff from the rush, but it’s really not going to end well if you keep riding like this. I don’t think you really want to hurt yourself, and I’m sure you don’t want to hurt someone else, but when you get on the bike you can’t help yourself, and when something happens you won’t be able to take it back.

Please seek help. It’s out there...

Thank you for these words they are really helping I really appreciate it you have no idea. Got my old pair of rollerblades out of the closet went to the bank and ran some errands on rollerblades Haha this is actually pretty soothing to be honest.

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Abner_the_basset_hound

Discussion Starter · #12 · Mar 14, 2021

vampire said:
it's normal to act this way when a person is depressed.
1st,, everything is treatable.
2nd,, if you crash, you won't only harm yourself, but others might be. especially your friends & family.
3rd,, and above all, professional help is advised.
I was on anti-depressant for 4 years but that alone won't help. look if you can gain anything from cognitive behavioral therapy.
Don't hesitate to PM me at any time.

Thank you I really appreciate it

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LouG

· #13 · Mar 14, 2021

Give your keys to someone to keep. You're putting other people at risk. If you feel bad now, you can't imagine how you'll feel if you killed a kid.
There's plenty of help available, go and ask for it.

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Camp49

· #14 · Mar 15, 2021

I mean, Who'd take care of Abner? Just saying, old Abner the Bass Hound would be mighty sad to find out his master lost control of his 3 cylinder ended up a vegetable. I've been 130mph on the FZ and with the wind blast it feels like my head will go right through the top of my helmet.

Hey, post up some photos of your ride. My advice would be sign up for a track day and practice calculated speed maneuvers, braking, and body positioning.

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Keef

· #15 · Mar 15, 2021

The topic of this thread is hard, but all the reponses are effing awesome, and is another example of the great community we have here.

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ridetofish

· #16 · Mar 15, 2021

Well said gentlemen.

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rtg8point

· #17 · Mar 15, 2021

I was in a black hole from about 36-47 or so. I'm 54 now. Our kids were from pre-teen to teenager. Everything was minottenous (sp. but that's close enough). I was self employed and hated it, marriage not good, I felt like I was everybody's whipping post and was supposed to perform like a circus monkey. I know the faith thing is personal and it's not something that is talked about here and I understand. So let me just say that If you're seeking joy, peace, purpose, etc., from the things in this world, it's gonna leave you empty and wanting. Everyone's care and concern here are great. I think because most of us have been through it. Also consider it may be medical reasons. But please don't consider ending your life, it is the most selfish thing you can do. As someone also said above, PM me or someone here if you need to talk.

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gigiman

· #18 · Mar 17, 2021

Hi Abner, one thing is not to use the bike as a tool to transfer yourself in another world , what is more bearable for you than the world you are actually living in ..... others are using alcohol - drugs etc. to reach that aim in a depressive situation.
The other thing is to understand, what is going on inside you ..... here it´s really advisable to find help from people who know about these diseases, that affect no organ ( which we can understand more easily) but our psyche....

I , some time ago, have been out of order because of a depression for about 8 month .... finally got out of it due to psychotherapy and because I learned about tools to use when getting in such "dull moods"..... You have a good chance to recover.... but you definitely have to cooperate and start to work on it.....

Wish you all the best ....... you are not alone !

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Annihilator

· #19 · Mar 17, 2021

Yes, but not to that degree. You should find a safer outlet. Do you have a car? Go try autocross. You can fully submerse yourself into that world. 10 years will go by like that. Thats what I did 15 years ago after a bad motorcycle wreck. I felt like I needed a safer outlet for a while and it paid off.

In general, I have lived my life seeking danger and adrenaline rushes because its really the only way I feel alive and feel good. I dont know if its depression so much as it is stress. For some reason activities that would be extremely high stress situations for normal people, like riding fast in heavy traffic or sailing my boat singlehanded in really bad weather - relax me. But oddly, other simpler activities make me literally sick with stress. When I'm working on anything mechanical on a car, and something is difficult or frustrating, I immediately start feeling sick, like flu symptoms. Same thing happens to me when the computer F's up and I'm stressed trying unsuccessfully to fix it. Its bizarre because I dont feel strong mental stress, its like a body sickening effect. I know its not a heart problem or anything because I've been tested and other forms of strenuous work, like doing body work on the same car, dont produce the effects.

But I think there is something to this as a lot of people take up motorcycles to treat their PTSD with what they call "wind therapy". The calming effect that you and I feel on our bikes is not unique. Lots of veterans report the exact same phenomenon. You probably have a past trauma that hasn't been or cannot be dealt with.

Obviously you dont want to keep doing this. This post is a cry for help. Listen to what your subconscious is telling you and go get the help. Even if its not professional help, maybe make a change on your own like parkimg the bike and find a new hobby or new people.

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Niner

· #20 · Mar 17, 2021

Abner, how are you holding up, man? There is a lot of great advice above.
As someone who is living with bipolar disorder I can attest to the success of proper medication management, therapy, and healthy daily habits.

This community has been nothing but amazing in so many regards - now to see all this support here... it's just heartwarming.

Please feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to or someone to just listen.

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